Day One, With Threes & Fives.

Yesterday was my birthday.

So now that I'm 35, it's time to get busy.

I've got work to do in order to make 36 year old me proud.

Sometimes I get sad that it's taken me so long to find my path and feel connected to it. But then I remember that rather than pursuing ambition, I spent most of my adulthood on my family. On turning babies into children, and on love. And all of the experiences, questions, growth, hurdles, traditions, and viewpoints of life wouldn't exist in my psyche had that not been true. The journey I'm embarking on today wouldn't be what it is. What it could be. What it will be.

So 35 is just fine. No reason to feel like the train left the station without you, self. Thirty five is a vibe.

Do you know, that all my life, 3's and 5's have followed me? I have 3 boys, there are 5 of us in our nuclear family. Two of my boys were born on the 15th (3x5) and the other was born on the 25th (5x5). It took me 5 months to get pregnant with the boys born on 15's, and 3 months with the one born on the 25th. I had 3 major romantic relationships. I've had 3 step-siblings. One of my parents has been married 3 times. My husband and I got engaged on 3/25 (5x5). I currently have 3 cats. I could go on, but these numbers serve as confirmation and understanding to me and probably not a whole lot to you. But it dawned on me, just this morning, as I approach a project that has felt more purposeful and ME than anything I've ever tackled, that I'm doing so armed with my numbers - a 3 and a 5.

It's like I have my own set of spiritual guards flanking me as I navigate this next year. They mean business. They have a lot to show me. And they won't let anyone or anything get in the way.

I spent the second half of my summer planning this journey, and I did so thinking that I would start by playing with writing in ways I haven't before. And while that's still true, I have an actual project going now that basically leaped at me a few weeks ago. It jumped to the forefront of my awareness from allllll the way back in the recesses of my consciousness (where I had it kept in a dead-bolted iron box). I didn't plan on it. I didn't even want it. Yet it demanded my attention, and as soon as I obliged...I knew it was the right thing to do. So I'm starting today with a path even clearer than I'd imagined. I'm beginning with more than hopes and a rough guide. I'm committing to an actual something that could equate to a new existence 365 days from now.

(Isn't it interesting that a year contains my 3, my 5, and a multiple of 3? If I ever needed confirmation that a year is the right timing for this project, I just found it.)

I hope you'll stop in from time to time as I travel and say hello.