It's rainy this morning, but in a good way. It's the leaves-on-trees (albeit tiny ones), windows open, birds chirping kind of rain. It's my favorite. For whatever reason, it reminds me of camping, and Disney World in the morning after everything's been sprayed down.
As settled as I am here in quarantine, I do miss those things. I also miss hunting for treasures at Clothes Mentor, seeing Jean at yoga, going for walks in pretty parks, getting coffees with anyone willing, and feeling at home in Target - roaming the aisles, getting inspired. I saw an article the other day that said this virus may never go away, and my stomach dropped. I was so eager to board up and back away and protect my kids that I didn't stop to think about how much I wish we had more of a warning. Would I have done anything differently? Would I have gotten out of the house a little more? I guess I'll never know. And I guess life doesn't always work like that - you don't always get a fair warning when something life-changing is coming. But I might have lived a little differently if I knew the next 62 or 80 or 125 or 200 days would be lived right here, in this tiny house on this plot of land. I miss my family. Admittedly, I don't see them enough as it is because of the pace of normal life, but I'm sad that I can't make plans to camp or swim or grill or sit around a fire. Everything is so uncertain. It's a strange feeling to have now - as Buffalo comes to life for our 4ish fair weather months, we still can't (safely) kick off our usual activities. Most days I'm okay with that, but there are moments when I mourn it, too. How much of Summer is canceled? How much will my kids miss out on this year? And when will we know?Despite missing things as they usually are, I wholeheartedly believe in making the best of the situation we're in, so I've got some plans brewing. I want to plan a camping at home day, a "super fun day" to replace the one my boys will miss (it's their school's field day), and maybe some sort of graduation ceremony/celebration for Jake. Matt is planning to take a day off in the first couple weeks of June for our Super Fun Day and he's got some good ideas so I'm excited to work on the planning for that.
I just saw that Cuomo extended the stay at home order through June 13th. Some parts of the state are allowed to start their careful, phased reopening, though. We won't be jumping in as soon as things open, so I guess that means we've got another 43ish days at home. Possibly (probably) more. It's a little sad, but it's also okay. As the outdoors come to life and we spend more of our time in our yard rather than inside this little house, things will feel more expansive and fulfilling, for sure.
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